be kind to each other

My friend Brian died Monday.
I met Brian though my friend Lyle.
Lyle died 6 years ago this summer.
They had a lot in common. They were cranky, curmudgeonly, loving men, 8 year old boys, at heart, who poke you and pull your hair when they like you. Men who came from hard places and had big soft hearts.

I found out yesterday.
My phone rang and from the name on the caller ID I knew I’d either been dialed by mistake, or it was bad news. I’d rather have been a mistake.
Brian and I had drifted apart for no reason other than location, location, location. We found each other again through Facebook, so say what you want about it, it brings people together.

Lyle used to say Life isn’t fair. You don’t get what you deserve, he said, You get what you get. It’s what you do with it that’s the measure of your character.

They were men of character.

I can only remember half a dozen things in my life, but that’s one of them.

Brian had the virus.
Lyle had cancer.
They both died sober. That’s supposed to be some sort of consolation, and I suppose it’s better than dying drunk, but really, dead is dead and gone is gone. There is no good way to die, there is no good day to die.

Lyle also said, be kind to each other.
That bears repeating.
Be kind to each other.

Rest in Peace Brian.

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summer in the city

I walked through the new Washington Square Park, expecting to be disappointed, or at least annoyed, but it was lovely. The fountain is working, the landscaping inviting. I spent an hour listening to musicians, watching kids playing in the fountain or with their families, hearing a hundred languages from tourists passing through. The park was packed with white people.

When I say white people, apparently I mean white bread– well dressed, clean, educated and wholesome. So even brown folks are white sometimes. I’m sure I’ve offended someone with that remark, it wasn’t my intention, it’s just the way it looks to me.

I left feeling “estranged”.       Continue reading

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wake me up before you goat, girl

My first day working in the barn at Green Chimney’s. You know how excited I was, I could barely sleep. I arrived eager, ready to work, ready to help, ready to nuzzle sheeps and goats. Apparently I will nuzzle anything with fur, wool or hair and cannot tell one critter from another.

What kind of goat is that?   It’s a sheep.

Hey, chickens are laying eggs in the goat pen. That’s a rooster, I wouldn’t worry.

I embarrassed myself repeatedly like this while I cleaned pens, mucked out stalls, rebedded pens and watered pigs. I learned pigs need a LOT of water, goats and sheeps, not so much.

Helping move a horse trough across one paddock and into another, I was grateful for my work boots. Goat berries are small and neat, but there is no avoiding horse poo in a paddock full of horses & ponies. I learned ponies are not young horses, or even just short horses, any more than zebras are stripped horses. I discovered the easy way to tell if a mare is in heat is to take note of the hung like a horseness of the male hot on her heels.

I helped lay grass seed and learned that hay and straw, not the same thing. Hay is for eating, straw for laying down on. Who knew? I know now.

Both chickens & peacocks like to take dirt baths.

Menstruating women should beware of  sows.

Emus, like raccoons and magpies, like shiny glittery things. And they’re fast boy oh boy. This one tried to whip my rhinestone studded glasses off my face. Twice.

I learned that when everyone is bahhing, braying, and cackling it is very loud and very funny.

My first day of farm work. At 52 I’m still a teacher’s pet, kiss butt, apple polishing overachiever. Each stall in the barn needs to be cleaned once a week, but they didn’t all have to be done in one day.

I’m exhausted.
I’m hungry.
I can’t stop smiling.

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