thirty years later…

I had to take a little time off from the “other” blog, from writing in general. I’d written about the rape. Again. It’s hard. I was going to say You don’t know what you take from us when you rape us. But, I’d be speaking to people who either don’t care - those who rape [...]

ode to my depression

Alcohol was my answer to The Depression. My first answer. It worked for a while, until it didn’t. It worked until it needed something…extra.
Tuinals, nembutals, lysergic acid diethylamide, seconals, amyl nitrate, mescaline, peyote, cocaine, crank, quaaludes, heroin. Just a little something extra on top of the alcohol, for the deep soul sucking hole inside of [...]

colonoscoparty or there’s a party in my pants

I’m high risk for colon cancer. Okay, everybody gets something. I hadn’t minded until today.
Up until today regular colonoscopys meant getting an intravenous Demerol/Versed cocktail. It’s not for everyone, of course. I think of it as an acquired taste, like Scotch. Or Heroin. My own doctor hates it, he says it makes him feel like [...]